pump-pump-PUMP it up

Well ive cut back on my pumping and ill be honest im not ok with it. i pump every 6 hours and im averaging about 16 oz a day. zoey takes about 30 oz. So im doing slightly more then half her intake, which is pretty much what i was getting pumping every 4 hours. and ill be honest sleeping for 6 straight hours has been really nice.But Im feeling horribly guilty. And im angry jim wants me to hang up my horns. Why doesnt he see that this is so important to me? I have had some support on ivillage, heres my post you can check out. while im still on the fence, these girls are keeping me from hanging myself off of it...

Im so angry at the whole breastfeeding situation, Im mad i cant just whip out my boob and feed my baby. why do i have to take all these extra steps and hassle. why cant i have a husband who totally supports me in this weird world im in. i feel so alone in my choice to be an exclusive pumper. I feel like a total failure. I just wish he saw me as the woman who will take any measure to insure his daughter will have the very best i can give her. i know that i ignore him and i know that i have a better relationship with my pump then i have with him. why am i so obsessive with this. i just wish i wasnt stuck in the middle. i wish i had a nursing baby, or at least a full milk supply. i hate being alone out here...