feeling empty (. )(. )

its been 2 days since ive last pumped. im doing ok. im not in any pain or feel any lumps. I packed up my pump and all my nursing bras and tops. its a very strange feeling to have my chest back. i have a lot more time in my day without washing all my pumping supplies and storage bottles. i feel a peace over the loss though. my daughter is just as happy and healthy. she is still thriving. i really did give her the best start i could and thats all that is important to me :)

i came home from work on saturday and my mom had dropped by while jim was watching zoey. shes been there for me the entire struggle and has held me together through it all. this is what i found when i got home, isnt she the best mom in the world?

 shes so sweet! we wound up taking zoey to the park for the first time! she loved it!

we did have our family weigh in last night. its wasnt that horrible. im still fat, but down 3 pounds. my sister in law rachel had us all join my fitness pal, its a great site to follow your diet and exercise and encourage each other. i have it on my kindle so its easy to take with you.

today is my once a week cooking day, which is stressful but easy to do! having a little one is tricky and this helps us so much. and its great cause when im at the salon, i dont get done until 7 so jim can start heating it up and weve got a homemade yummy meal!  up this week for dinner...

chicken with spinach and portabella orzo
turkey breast with whole wheat stuffing, roasted sweet potatoes, cranberries, and apsaragus
beef chili with spaghetti squash
chicken supreme casserole
chicken ceasar salad with veggie soup
beef strew with sweet potatoes
grilled chicken tacos with homemade pico de gio and guacamole

heres to a delicious week!