the bigger they are the harder they fall....

 i had my annual at the gyno. i got up really early so i could shower and get ready and wake zoey up earlier to tire her out so she could nap while we were there...yea right. they are seriously the sloooowest drs ive ever been to. so of course she was awake and less then enthused to be in the car seat. the visit seemed to go well. i did ask her what she wanted me to be before we tried to conceive again. she told me 150, anything else is pretty unrealistic. that broke me and i felt pretty defeated. no i will not be 89lbs but i will not stop at 150, that still has me in the over weight catagory and that is just not acceptable. not for me or my twinkle in daddys eye baby to be.
Ive also started on loestrin 24 fe.  im not really caring about the birth control aspect, im just despite to get a control on my acne. ive had it for years and quite frankly im just so sick of it.

our dane is not doing so well. he seemed to have lost a lot of weight when we came home from vacation a month ago, and started limping a little on his back legs. we had him scheduled to get his neuter done next week but because hes over 5 he needed blood work done. so the day before that i noticed his front leg had a huge bump on it, and it made me really worried. i called him and he canceled the appointment at the neuter clinic then made one at the vets instead.

i brought him inside and he just laid around and i put some ice on his leg

he was beyond excited to have that on....lol. so jim took him in and he met some cats and some other little dogs but since he was so nervous he didnt even make a sound. he got onto the scale and weighed in at 123. he had lost a lot of weight. they took him back and he checked out great. so they take an xray, this is where jim stopped texting me, and that had me worrying.

jim comes home and walks tank to the yard. he comes in and loses it. tank has bone cancer, and only has 3-6 months left to live. we cant believe it and are totally devastated. we could give him an amputation and chemo but we decided to make his last few weeks as comfortable as we can and put him to sleep. its going to be such a sad day when we have to do that. and im not sure how i feel about going back there with him. but i need to because thats when he needs us there the most <3